I like responsibility. I like to be able to take charge of things/events/run the way i want it to. But today, i learnt a lesson. Responsibility for a life is a responsibility too big for me to handle. I always thought i could handle it, i thought i was experienced and mature enough but i was so wrong.
You can never be too experienced or mature when someone's life is in your hands. And i learnt that you can never be adequately prepared for it. The guilt and pain i feel is probably nothing compared to how the anxiousness and how worried her friends are, nothing like the trauma she is suffering and definitely nothing like what her parents are going through.
I know that no amount of pain and guilt that i am feeling now will help elevate the situation. I only hope that everything will be all right in the end.
Sorry is not adequate enough to amend my mistake. No words or actions will wash this off my stained hands.
But there is nothing more that i can do now but to say "I am sorry." From the bottom of my heart and with everything i have: " I am sorry."
I hope you bounce back up as usual and as quickly as possible.
Responsibility dictates that i cant quit now too. Not 2 weeks before it ends. I still have a team to lead and i'll lead them all the way pass the finishing line.
-Mark-
1/14/2010 04:33:00 am
Quotes
"What of soul was left, I wonder, when the kissing had to stop?" - Robert Browning
"What profits the man who gains the world but loses his soul?"
“He that falls in love with himself will have no rivals.” ~Benjamin Franklin
Life can be tough, misery is optional.
“Happiness can be found, even in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light.” ~ Harry Potter
"Some people feel the rain, others just get wet" ~Bob Dylan
"Sex relieves tension - love causes it" ~Woody Allen
Soul meets soul on lovers lips
Be without a doubt
Love of my life
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Credits and note from the designer
Designer Eric Sim
Brushes Hybrid Genesis and
Eric Sim
Features an abstract- floral digital artwork drawn by me in photoshop. This layout is appropriate for all genders. The grandiose design is laid freely on a simple canvas and they complement each other pretty well. The sudden gradient change is applied to create one contrasting element. I created a 3D effect on the vines and they seem to jut out of the yellow canvas.
Why the name? The design, as you can see, is abstract and it gives a double-vision feel, therefore, Esophoria, a tendency to squint your eyes inward to create a double vision.
