Do you know who I am? Like really who I am? I spent some time thinking about the people in my life that really know the answer. And the conclusion is one person, or maybe two(If i include myself)
The thing is... How many people really know the true you? That's because we all want to be accepted by our friends, and every group of friends is different - Different dynamics, different characteristics. So we behave in accordance to how the people will most accept us.
The same goes for me. I'm different when im with my mse friends/JC/swimming friends. But in times of trouble, i usually turn to myself for help. In that aspect, i think im quite a loner. Perhaps i am a loner to begin with. I've had many friends but not many who knew me very well. Even if they did, none of them last more than 2 years cuz thats when i graduate from the place and i don't really keep in contact much. This realization dawned upon me and i started to do some soul searching.
Dependence on people is something i avoid because i learnt that the most dependable person on earth is always yourself. Trust on the other hand, is something you must give, its always risky but essential to build up on friendships, otherwise you'll forever remain as acquaintance. Trust has to also be earned.
Basically, i'm just feeling lonely and in need of some real friendship again. i've been hurt badly before and tho' that scar has faded over time, it still remains hidden somewhere in the deep recesses of my mind and has affected me subconsciously. Perhaps its time again to venture out and search for something i have lost a long time ago.
-Mark-
2/11/2010 02:32:00 pm
Quotes
"What of soul was left, I wonder, when the kissing had to stop?" - Robert Browning
"What profits the man who gains the world but loses his soul?"
“He that falls in love with himself will have no rivals.” ~Benjamin Franklin
Life can be tough, misery is optional.
“Happiness can be found, even in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light.” ~ Harry Potter
"Some people feel the rain, others just get wet" ~Bob Dylan
"Sex relieves tension - love causes it" ~Woody Allen
Soul meets soul on lovers lips
Be without a doubt
Love of my life
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Credits and note from the designer
Designer Eric Sim
Brushes Hybrid Genesis and
Eric Sim
Features an abstract- floral digital artwork drawn by me in photoshop. This layout is appropriate for all genders. The grandiose design is laid freely on a simple canvas and they complement each other pretty well. The sudden gradient change is applied to create one contrasting element. I created a 3D effect on the vines and they seem to jut out of the yellow canvas.
Why the name? The design, as you can see, is abstract and it gives a double-vision feel, therefore, Esophoria, a tendency to squint your eyes inward to create a double vision.
