I am Me. I don't have to be who people want me to be or try to pretend something that I am not. I have often wondered:"What do I want in life? Who am I?"
After countless nights of reflection and deep pensive thoughts, I have arrived at a conclusion. I am kind, I avoid conflicts and unhappiness as much as I can because I don't like them. I prefer to agree than disagree.
I love peace and harmony. I love to be challenged at work, to work to impress and be accepted. I prefer to truly know someone rather than just touch and go. I don't really care about riches and fanciful cars.
I want to love and be loved, have a happy and supportive family. Call me naive but that is what I believe and want. Up to now, I don't believe in all the riches that everyone says the banking world promises.
What profits a man who gains the world but loses his soul? It's not that I believe that I will rot in hell if I go for fame and riches but rather, its that in this world, I'm afraid to live in misery everyday and die unhappy.
We can't take our riches to the other world when we die. "Who says there is another world anyway?" Some would argue. "So you might as well enjoy life here to the max and get filthy rich! After all, you only have one life."
Exactly my point. Who are you to tell me that being rich is the only way to being happy? I know I'll be more than contented with just a supportive family, loving wife, great kids, doting grandparents and with just enough to live by.
"What a naive and girly dream that is" But who are you to tell me about how I should want to live my life and even more so, who are you to tell me that I should not go after my dream?
Yes, there were times when I feel confused. I want to know the whole world, yet I also want to be left alone. At times I want to get it all: be that charismatic person that everyone loves and be that successful person that everyone looks up to. Yet I want to be left alone at the side of the party too.
Isn't that what being human is all about? It's a never ending search for answers to questions. Making mistakes and learning from them, being pensive and being caught up in the moment. I hope that even if I discount everything else, this trip has made me more aware of myself and who I am, who I want to be and one step closer to achieving the happiness that everyone seeks.
"Because when the world quiets to the sound of your own breathing, we all want the same things: comfort, love and a peaceful heart" - Mitch Albom, author of have a little faith.
-Mark-
7/26/2011 09:10:00 PM
Quotes
"What of soul was left, I wonder, when the kissing had to stop?" - Robert Browning
"What profits the man who gains the world but loses his soul?"
“He that falls in love with himself will have no rivals.” ~Benjamin Franklin
Life can be tough, misery is optional.
“Happiness can be found, even in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light.” ~ Harry Potter
"Some people feel the rain, others just get wet" ~Bob Dylan
"Sex relieves tension - love causes it" ~Woody Allen
Soul meets soul on lovers lips
Be without a doubt
Love of my life
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Credits and note from the designer
Designer Eric Sim
Brushes Hybrid Genesis and
Eric Sim
Features an abstract- floral digital artwork drawn by me in photoshop. This layout is appropriate for all genders. The grandiose design is laid freely on a simple canvas and they complement each other pretty well. The sudden gradient change is applied to create one contrasting element. I created a 3D effect on the vines and they seem to jut out of the yellow canvas.
Why the name? The design, as you can see, is abstract and it gives a double-vision feel, therefore, Esophoria, a tendency to squint your eyes inward to create a double vision.
