Who is this person that i see in the mirror? What of the expectations that others have on him? What of the expectations that he has of himself? What about all the promises and hardships that will face him when he comes out to the world in 7 months time?
I see a confident yet insecure man. I see a mature yet childish personality. I see a flicker of fire in his eyes, yet is still so naive. I see a passion of wanting to be more than what he can become, yet is held back by things he cannot control.
I am only 24, still young but with lots of responsibilities. I am only 24 yet i want to be 34. I want a good paying job; good advancement in my career; happy with my friends, colleagues, bosses and working hours; drive a nice car; live in a comfortable home with my wife at my side every night, watching the night pass by. Not having to worry about work or the meeting that i'll have tomorrow. She not having to worry about work or the meeting tomorrow. Everything in its place, where it should be.
But why does this never work out for anyone?Are we expecting too much in this lifetime? Can life ever be perfect? Can it ever be sweet and blissful? I know the answer but it is so hard to get there. I know that only God can give me that happiness and that I have to make him the center of my life. I know too that even when the world turns against me, when my parents turn against me, I still have him and I can trust in him completely and get through all hardships. But just how hard it is to make him the center of my life.
God is the cornerstone in my life and from that cornerstone, I build my life. He has given me my Dad who has provided the family with the stability it needs. Given my mom the love that she deserves. He has given me a comfortable family to grow up in. He has given me Debbie whom is the love of my life. And blessed me with the opportunity of being able to study in the University.
I look forward with hope and renewed vigor. That with him all things are possible. I've met with hard times and suffered but without them, i wouldn't be who i am today. More will come and they will only make me come out of my comfort zone and grow up and mature into the man that I will become. The man his son will look up to with admiration and draw inspiration to become a better person that I will ever be.
I pray that we will all find our own happiness. Amen.
-Mark-
11/13/2011 12:00:00 AM
Quotes
"What of soul was left, I wonder, when the kissing had to stop?" - Robert Browning
"What profits the man who gains the world but loses his soul?"
“He that falls in love with himself will have no rivals.” ~Benjamin Franklin
Life can be tough, misery is optional.
“Happiness can be found, even in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light.” ~ Harry Potter
"Some people feel the rain, others just get wet" ~Bob Dylan
"Sex relieves tension - love causes it" ~Woody Allen
Soul meets soul on lovers lips
Be without a doubt
Love of my life
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Credits and note from the designer
Designer Eric Sim
Brushes Hybrid Genesis and
Eric Sim
Features an abstract- floral digital artwork drawn by me in photoshop. This layout is appropriate for all genders. The grandiose design is laid freely on a simple canvas and they complement each other pretty well. The sudden gradient change is applied to create one contrasting element. I created a 3D effect on the vines and they seem to jut out of the yellow canvas.
Why the name? The design, as you can see, is abstract and it gives a double-vision feel, therefore, Esophoria, a tendency to squint your eyes inward to create a double vision.
